I’ve ended every relationship I’ve ever been in with every person I cared for. For a long time, I’ve thought it’s because I don’t understand why anyone would love me–kind of a “I’d rather not belong to the club that would have me as a member” thing.
I’ve felt very badly about leaving those relationships with perfectly suitable men, but I didn’t leave because I didn’t feel loveable. I left because there was nothing left the learn or grow from them.
Every relationship I’ve had and left gave me more knowledge and a better understanding. I left because there was nothing more to learn. I felt those men would be better off with someone who didn’t expect to keep growing, evolving, and learning from each other.
Being single is ok. Having relationships is fine. Moving on when there’s no growth left is also fine.